why you are doing?What you have done?Who you are?Where you have to go ?

Today i am feeling really miserable and depressed by the things going on in life. Sometimes i think just to leave everything and run away.....away from this world,away from my present and future....away from the fight going inside my heart.....Just want to forget everything...want to just finish myself leaving everything aside.

Sometimes you feel so helpless,so lonely,so hollow that you didnt find the way to come out of the blow of depression.People says problem doesnt come from anywhere else...It generates from yourself only and you are the only one who can solve.If this is so what friends,girelfriend,wife has a role in your life?????why somebody just come in your life and started sharing your happiness and sorrow and one day when you become habituated of that support,of that shoulder....just vanished, just disappeared.

Everytime when i thought that now things are going right,things are getting better, and than suddenly a blow comes and everything just shattered away and again i have to start from the very first begining.

Once while going to nainital on bike, i stop at a place where i saw a child who was trying to collect all the fallen leaves at a place and after few minutes cars or bikes or trucks comes and rolls over it and all the leaves were again shattered on road, each and everytime he finish the work , the leaves again sarts falling here and there

I am like that kid who tries to give his life a path and everything starts settelling down and than suddenly a blow comes and everything is just gone.And again i have to start from ground zero.

My Dad always says that this is life. Life is a struggle you have to struggle at each and every part, than does it mean that i cant live a settle and peacefull life?

Everytime i have to face challenges,Sometimes in monetary terms and sometimes in emotional terms.

How will you feel when you are unable to attend marriage of the person whom you respect the most because you dont have money in your pocket??

How will you feel when a person whom you love the most,trusted the most leave you in the middle of the life??

You cant do anything except crying in a dark room or just trying to get rid off....You cant do anything.....You cant....

When you get happiness,joy ,sucess and you want to share it and you find nobody else standing bside you, to whom you can hug and tell how happy you are today, Sometimes you feel low and want to hide yourself in someone, you want somebody whom you can hold and just say i dont wanna leave you and there is nobody to answer, than you realise for whom you are doing all these things,Why you are doing extra work, "Just for money" it can be but just look inside yourself and than ask the same question, i m sure you will find a different answer.And please do let me know your answer.....

And than tell why you are doing?What you have done?Who you are?Where you have to go ?