Expect the Unexpected

It happens many a time that we expect something and it didnt turn out well. And in hope of something is better than nothing we expect as the things comes.Quite confused ???

As the what the hell i want to say ?

So here is the cover story.

It happens many a time with us that we want to forget something but that thing in any form, comes in front of us.Since past few days its happening with me also and that thing is LOVE.

Yeah again love has knocked my heart's door.

I was trying harder to forget my past and to start my life. And i was getting success too. I have kept myself busy in office work (trust me guys there is hell lot of work out there) , friends,home and my career.And the first sign of my resurrection was HOLI . After a long time i enjoyed a lot and had full masti and fun with my friends in my hometown . Life seems to be easy and wonderfull again as i was getting back to normal track and most importantly my friemds are there with me.
But i think happiness is not written in my destiny.Last week a girl proposed me though its seems quite normal as i am living in a metro city and have interactions with girls but sometimes normal things becomes abnormal.
It was round abt 12 in night on sunday a girl i know just few days back called me and said some romantic dialogues and proposed me. Within seconds my past was in front of me and my all memories which i was trying to clear from my mind become fresh and i disconnected the phone. I was hell out of mind.

I got some gifts which my gf gave me before, i put them out of cartan and start looking at them, those hand made cards,lovey slips,some gifts hah everything was again in my mind. And i was lost in my past and when i come out of it, it was already 7 in the morning and i have to get ready for my office. The whole way i was thinking what should i do ??? Should i say yes or should is say no. My brain was telling me that Sumit Kab tak tu apne past me ulza rahega, one day you have to bring some other girl in your life but my heart was saying How can you bring somebody else in your life. My heart was not at all ready to accept a new girl in my life at least not so early.So i decided to keep this topic here only and decided think about it once i am out of the office.

The whole day i was busy in office work (you know monday blues) and while coming back to home in whole way i was thinking the same matter. Than that girl again called me and i decided to meet her.We met at Ansal Plaza and while we were walking she hold my hand. And that was the turning point of the whole matter.And i got my answer.........

No - Yepp that was my answer. Why ????

Because when she hold my hand it remind of my past affair, the same thing happen on that day too.

(I was in nainital, on that day we were walking at Thandi sadak and while walking she hold my hand, it gives me a feeling of trust and love and i decided that yes she is the only gal with whom i want to spend my whole life.)

But in this caseI drove my hand and i said to her that look gal i cant, i cant go with you in this relation as you remind of my past and i will not be able to give you that love,care and affection which you are expecting from me Coz i still love my ex GF.

Trust me friends while i was in ansal plaza, i realise that my heart is completely dead and as cold as ice like there was no feelings left in me.

I told her about my past and i said that i am not the right man for you. Coz i know myself and i was pritty aware of the fact that i cant spend even a single second with her .The way she was holding my hand,the way she was putting her hand on my shoulder and the way she tried to hug me.....i was not feeling comfortable at all and i talk to her very rudely (for which i said sorry later) but really it turns me off.

I was thinking why life plays all these games with us ??? You cant live with one whom you love and with whom you feel happy and comfortable and when a man is trying to stabelise himself why these kind of things happen again and again.

Life never gave us what we want,what we desire it just gave us things which we totally unexpect sometimes it looks like there is a kind of bowl kept in the hand of life with lot of slips and that slips will decide what our future will be.

Guys really i think may be my heart is now dead or the wound is still fresh.........