!!!!!!So its me back again !!!!!

After three months of exile from my (Not So Personal Diary).

Few of my friends raised questions for my blog and the feelings which I am expressing in form of words in it and my motive behind it. And my answer was what if I am sharing my very personal feelings with one whom I never saw or will never meet in my life. This blogs remove my hesitation to show my actual feelings. I know its not going to affect anybody’s life but yes it effects mine.

So leaving this topic or aka regular topics here only. I start writing for what I am here.

Even after completely changed my whole life routine I am still finding difficulty in coming out of my paranoid creating by myself only (coz I don’t want to blame anybody). I have completed my book and like other books it also end up with showing the same way of spiritual path which I think is not appropriate for a person of age group of 22 yrs.

In last two months I have stopped listening voice of my heart which was taking me to some other path , a path which is totally unknown to me and also don’t know where will it take.

But since September i was dragged to my those old feelings back. My materialistic part don’t want to go but I think that this time its my real heart which overpowered my other part and I am back.

I am like a person who is just trapped in a war between my responsibilities and my own problems. I don’t know which way to go.

Previously I thought that it is due to my hectic work pressure which is overpowering my life and so I took a 7 day off from my routine my life and gave time to myself but it didn’t work . Now I am sure that it is not just a result of some work pressure but it is something else. I don’t know what it is going but yeah it is something which if not cured on time is going to take me away from me.

I know it was really a very confusing posting from my side but what can I do I myself has become more complicated than a riddle.